Read the latest guest post Finding Bravery!
What’s the most positive thing about 2020 that happened to you? Mandy has this to say:
I was seventeen when my best friend passed away. Her death left me completely shattered and lost. Suddenly, I had to figure out how to navigate the world without her. For months I told myself it wasn’t real, that they had made a mistake. We were still kids, and I thought there was no way she was gone. She was only 16, and it didn’t seem possible. I never fully allowed myself to grieve, and I think that’s where everything went wrong. For years I felt awful, guilty, and like the way I was feeling wasn’t normal. But, out of the fear of hurting others by bringing it up, I kept quiet.
In April of 2019, something happened that told me what I was feeling was definitely not normal. A month later, I spoke up. We began looking for a therapist for me. It was a long and extremely frustrating road, but, in January of 2020, we found one that I really liked.
On my very first session, I was diagnosed with PTSD.
Everything made sense then. I continued with therapy and started to heal and learn how to navigate a new diagnosis. Speaking up made me brave, and healing began to open doors I didn’t even know existed. Because of this newfound bravery, I published my first novel, something I was always terrified of doing but had also been a dream of mine for as long as I can remember.
It also gave me the courage to email Starlight Writer’s Society and ask about being the featured writer for the May journal. I sent in a sample of my writing and was told they wanted me as their featured writer. The story I wrote was dedicated to my friend. To be honest, part of me was afraid of getting help because the trauma had become such a large part of me that I was scared I wouldn’t recognize myself if I got help. And I don’t, but that’s ok. The trauma is still there, but it doesn’t control every aspect of my life now like it used to. I was also afraid getting help meant losing my best friend all over again, but it didn’t, and she’s my reason; my reason to be happier, healthier, braver.
I am so, so glad I decided to stop being afraid and speak up. I’m so proud of myself for how far I’ve come this year, and I know she would be as well.
Thank you for reading Mandy’s guest post!
Mandy, thank you so much for sharing your experiences with us! I hope you continue to heal and grow. You are so strong! Do you have questions for her about Finding Bravery? Get in touch on Instagram or check out her book on Amazon. Share in the comments and let’s talk!
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